learning Kreyol
important conference calls opportunity coming from those calls God teaching patience bible study discussions about heaven my best friend, Paige.. boy do i miss her dreams and how the Lord uses them a Sovereign God birthdays looking forward to breakfast with lex and an ROS creating watching our staff team last summer turn into a family last friday night with hannah and katie reminiscing Pine Ridge '13 Jenna's birthday dinner watercolors Project Fond Blanc coffee dates with the beautiful Breelynn Lein dreaming about the future signing leases dress shopping for angela's wedding my roommate really cold pictures on the bridge with bundled friends freshly painted, smooth nails summer plans cake dip and disney movies local non-profits ^^^^^^^^
this video on grace though. "Grace races us to the Throne when we make haste to repent and always outruns us and treats us like we already are what we fear we'll never become." From the love of my own comfort From the fear of having nothing From a life of worldly passions Deliver me O God From the need to be understood From a need to be accepted From the fear of being lonely Deliver me O God Deliver me O God And I shall not want, I shall not want When I taste Your goodness I shall not want When I taste Your goodness I shall not want From the fear of serving others From the fear of death or trial From the fear of humility Deliver me O God Deliver me O God Audrey Assad This song is so raw and honest and real. In life, there are so many fears or things desired as needs that have such a grip on us... 'the love of my own comfort', 'the fear of being lonely', 'the need to be understood and accepted.' But Audrey Assad paints this beautiful prayer of her desire in all of the fear and need.. for the Lord to deliver. And ohhh God... 'when I taste Your goodness I shall not want.' Let it be. Amen! I am most grateful for this morning, as I sit in this room where the sun soaks in through the window each and every day. I sip on tea and I spend a morning resting with my Jesus. A beautiful night of fellowship and conversation last night has led me to reflecting on some of the restoration and redemption that my Jesus is doing in my life. This past semester of.. well, life.. has been one of the harder ones. There were things from my summer in Haiti that threw me into a whirlwind of emotions and just plain hard things that I needed to work through. But instead of acknowledging them and working through them, I pushed them to the side. Things continued to come up throughout the semester with school, bible study, home life, and it became too much. I shut down. I was numb. It became easier for me to continue to brush things off and pretend that everything was fine. It became easier to avoid talking to friends about what was going on, as well as my Jesus. Towards the end of the semester, I knew that enough was enough. I knew I needed to have the first of many hard conversations to come with the One who had been waiting all semester for me. That was the beginning of a hard road to reconciling my heart to Jesus. I also had hard conversations with friends, finally beginning to share things that were hard. One night I remember being specifically hard in trying to work through something. But while this moment was not a beautiful one, I learned to see the beauty that was in that moment. As I sat in tears, my dear dear friend and kindred to me sat there holding me. And she broke the silence with a soft voice, singing... ..and the sun it does not cause us, the sun it does not cause us to grow. it is the rain that will strengthen, the rain that will strengthen your soul. it will make you whole.. That moment I have held so very dear to my heart. And that song has been a big part of my life. Looking back at this past season of my life, I am able to see the hard ache and the hurt, but I am also ever so clearly able to see much more. I see that the Lord never left my side. I see that He patiently held out His arms.. waiting for me to come to Him. I see the lavish grace that He wanted to pour over me, and did. I see how He has and continues to make me new. I see how I am and continue to be changed by His beauty. I see how the rain has strengthened my soul. The work is not done. God is continuing to shape my heart. He is continuing to make me new and change me by His beauty. It doesn't always feel the best, but in the end you get to look back and see the Lord's hand in it all. You get to see where He was holding your hand through each step. So let Him. Let go of the hurt, the messy, the brokenness. Let Him in. Let Him romance you once again. Let Him just hold you. Let Him pour His grace over you. Let Him shape your heart and make it more like His every day. Let Him make you new. Let Him change you by His beauty. ..and let this song speak to your soul. Today I am grateful for getting to spend time with my dear friend, Ms. Katie Ruff, this incredible piece by Mr. Butler himself with zest in every strum and then being able to listen to my friend Lorne play it in real life. my utmost for His highest frozen eyelashes breath off the river intimacy with my Jesus
the gifted scarf from becky small talk with the shuttle driver babies tonights sunset LOL the head and the heart my phone conversation with Alexi audrey assad finding out katie is in towers over break too learning more kreyol with jacky 'rearranging the living room' pictures from momma watercolors.. (^wow, was i missing out) a dear friend of mine that i actually grew up with is embarking on a new adventure. her and her boyfriend are working on creating and releasing their first album! this is such exciting news. they are both beautiful souls with incredible passion and talent. so please please check out their kickstarter page as you listen to the video below, giving you a sneak peak of their indie-rock stylings. |
This life is not my own and so I choose to take the hand of the One who knows what lies ahead. Along the way we sing, we dance, we are learning portuguese and living in Brazil, and always gazing on beauty.^^^^
bind my wandering heart to Thee Archives
March 2016
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